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Spring?

It’s mid-February (as I’m sure you know!) but rather than heading out this morning to spend my Monday in a heated greenhouse with my hands in some soft, warm soil…I’m heading instead to an office job where I get to stare at a computer and answer the phone. A bit depressing to say the least. Spending the last 8 weeks of winter in a greenhouse is a great help to those end of winter blues that just drag out.

If I wasn’t 7 months pregnant I’d be a little more upset. .

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Catharsis

I know that it seems like I’m repeating myself over and over, but the truth is that I’m using this as a place for my thoughts and fears that Gabe is sick of talking about. True!

MIL was great over Christmas, not too many judgy/invasive questions, and she didn’t try to touch my belly. My family is, of course, still my family. But at least I can tell them to eff off if I need to. Now that there are some minor shower plans starting mom has felt the need to remind me that I should and shouldn’t register for certain things.. for example she told me that I won’t need swaddling blankets, Noah didn’t like them so my LO probably won’t either. HOW DO YOU KNOW?!!? I’m just sick of feeling like she and my MIL don’t think we are capable of doing this on our own. I’m 10 years older than my mother was when she had her first child, and no I haven’t had a baby myself, but I’ve been around plenty of them. IDK. I don’t like when people tell me that I can’t do something, or treat me like I’m not capable. Gabe and I are smart people, I know that we will be fine. It’s bad enough that I have my own fears about being a parent- like what if she is a colicky baby and doesn’t sleep much the first 6 weeks. What if I am unable to nurse her, and I have to give her formula? These are the things I’m concerned with- not freaking blankets. I try to remind myself that these comments generally come from the person trying to be helpful, and its probably my pregnant emotions taking control but…. and I just have to get it out here-

THEY HAVE HAD AND RAISED THEIR BABIES – THIS IS MY TURN, LET ME DO IT! IF I NEED HELP I WILL ASK FOR IT, OTHERWISE STFU AND KEEP YOUR OPINIONS TO YOURSELF.

Remind me to say that several times over the course of her first 6 months.

Things That Currently Stress Me Out..

…That I have no control over right now since they are all baby related.

1.) Will my MIL ask to be in the delivery room? OR will they show up and then I’ll have my mom and his parents here in our small house?? 

    – The rational part of me thinks this is crazy, and knows that she is not some overbearing woman who ignores me. But the hormonal part of me hears/reads these types of stories and can’t help but wonder.

2.) Once we have decided on names I’m not telling anyone (actually mom already knows our girl pick, but she has been sworn to secrecy) because I don’t want opinions. I made the mistake of telling my MIL and BIL some of my top choices and was annoyed when they gave their opinions. 

   – Thus, to avoid stress and unwanted opinions I will not divulge information. Other than if the baby is a boy or girl. 

3.) What if I’m too much of a wimp to do this without drugs??

    – I’m sure I will agonize over this from now until April.

4.) What if I am unable to breastfeed? 

    – Also certain I will obsess over this until April.

And the one thing I’m sure ALL pregnant women obsess over:

5.) What if I’m a bad parent? As in, what if I can’t cope? What if I can’t figure out why the baby is crying? 

  – I’m sure all first time moms go through this, especially in the first 3 months. I know I can handle things post-3 months, but what about before that? And this place is so small, which means that there is NO way my husband will get any sleep either- and I’m pretty sure that’s not good if you’re using equipment like a chainsaw on a daily basis. 

 

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This is what I’ve been up to!! 

Taking A Break.

Actually, I guess that’s what I’ve been doing for the last month anyway.  I feel that it will continue, for a while at least. There are lots of things changing around here, and to be honest- I just don’t feel compelled to update. Call it a hiatus if you will; I’ll be back 🙂

Garden Snippet: Lavandula angustifolia- lavender

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Who doesn’t love a perennial that also has a purpose? I have plans for a strawberry lavender jam…

Cottage Life.

I think at this point it is safe to say that we have settled in. Of course two days after we arrived we got a foot of snow.. I really hope that was the last significant snowfall for New England.

We went snowshoeing yesterday afternoon, the property that we are living on backs right up to the Appalachian Trail. Gabe is excited because this means that we can do some overnights without traveling at all. The nearest lean-to is about 3 miles away, which is a perfect distance.

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Kittens have settled in, I’m pretty sure they are just as happy to be here and out of the last place as we are. It’s so bright and sunny; the exact opposite of the hole we were living in. As you can see in the picture, the stairs that lead to our loft bedroom are a spiral staircase  The cats are totally in love. Delilah likes to sit on in and keep an eye on everyone, and Reg and Gabe play through it.

Overall, we are settling in nicely and are excited for things to pick up. I start my job on Monday and while I am excited, I’m also a little nervous. Today we tackled the spice storage issue, and tomorrow we are planning to visit the King Arthur flour shop; its a good excuse to check it out (and the Cabot annex nearby) and I need some more bread flour. I hear its not any cheaper to buy at the shop than in the store, but I want to go just the same.

Tomorrow’s Garden Snippet? I’m thinking another native favorite of mine… Butterfly weed.